This culture Here is Crazy. It is being HUNGRY yet SO FULL all the time. It’s embracing my weakness to lean into His strength and being stronger than ever before. It’s taking time to appreciate and hear every person around you because they are honored and reveal Christ. It’s the most simple messages striking the deepest cord. It’s learning with a quickening, where the lesson hits the brain, dodges quickly around it like a Microsoft Media Player background and sinks into the heart. When it hits the heart, it explodes throughout the body, effecting how one lives!
It’s a loss of identity and a gain of destiny all at once. That destiny comes from a deep core knowing of WHO I am, and living out of TRUTH of Whose I am. It’s identity, not restored in the natural sense, but it’s redefining identity then giving it and it’s a dispelling of your ideas of who you were.
It’s a thick presence that I can tap into and feel when I want to. And when I don’t feel anything, it’s a believing that I am in Heaven, and regardless of what I feel, there is SO much happening around me!!!!
It’s a peace and joy even in the worst of days, instant laughter and communion with the one who loves you. People say, “Bethel is where God lives.” While it may be easier to interact with Him here because you’re surrounded by hungry people, He lives everywhere and here is where people actually expect Him to show up! It’s calling home and KNOWING God has got them. And I can rejoice in their victories and pray in their struggles. And although I’m away, I’m still so close. I’m still at heart and they’re in mine. Its seeing things differently. New eyes. Everything has meaning. And if it’s laborious to find the meaning, you just treasure unique things in your heart and you ask the Lord about it. What does this mean? The fact that I keep looking at the clock at 1:11 and 11:11, is not a coincidence, and in time the LORD will reveal what He is trying to say, and in His answer, I’ll learn a bit more of how he speaks to me. It’s living as a valuable individual. Knowing, I have purpose and I have value. It’s finally taking care of myself because I have a lot to give, and I can’t let myself get pulled at every side like a tattered cloth. Because when God says go, I need to go in His strength and love, I can’t be stuck pulling at my loose strings and trying to figure out who I am. I prepare myself. I know myself, and in that I’m ready. It’s a treasuring of the interests and abilities he’s given me and an awareness that there’s more of those too. My calling may be those things which I already see, and it might be something I’ve never heard of in my life. And it might change over and over. It's being wooed every day by the best Lover ever, and wanting to find extravagant ways to love Him back. It's a constant exchange. It's revelation upon revelation. It's a PRAISE YOU for that and WHAT ELSE do you have!? And that's totally ok! It's God sharpening areas of my life to look more like Jesus and me actually being thankful for that. It’s finally a joy (when I used to take it as a cut). I’m so excited to see what He’ll make new instead of what I have now. I’m actually happy that we’re never “there” (perfection) but He’s always here.
